( Dexter )

I hate that there's only one episode of Dexter left this season! I really want to rewatch the series (at least seasons 2-4, since I did rewatch season 1 over the summer. But then again, season 1 is so amazing and one of my favorite seasons of TV ever, so it wouldn't be much of a hardship to go through it again either). And I am getting my dad season 2 for Christmas, so that's making me even more anxious for break, since I bet we'll watch it sometime during the break. Stupid school. (Only 12 days left!)

Oh I forgot to mention in my last post, we had an apartment meeting on Saturday and, well, there are 5 of us living here right now, which apparently is illegal? I don't know, it might have something to do with fire codes or I don't know what. Anyways, the landlord we have now was okay with just ignoring it, but he sold the complex to someone else who's taking over next semester and this guy is apparently a huge stickler for the rules. And next semester is fine because 2 people are studying abroad but only 1 is getting a subletter (because the other person shares a room with the girl she's in a relationship with so... there's only one bed, and it doesn't really work to get a subletter, obviously) so there will only be 4 of us. But apparently in the fall, 1 of us will have to move out. ( More Apartment Stuff! )

I got zero done yesterday. I'm ok with that, though. I didn't really need to do anything yesterday, and I needed the break. After classes today, I'll work hard on my research project and presentation so I can talk to my adviser about it tomorrow morning, and then I'll spend Tuesday afternoon working on my cognitive presentation before we meet that night, and then after that I'll do last minute prep for my research presentation. It'll all work out. And in one week exactly my research project will be done and turned in! ugh I can't wait. Only one full week of classes left!

Thank you so much for all the snowflake cookies! Really brightened my day. ♥♥♥

I have been a crappy, crappy poster lately, but I definitely wanted to say thank you to thegreylady21, tabularassa, rugbybaby, __tiana__ estarmuerta, wordsindreams, and melzy08 for the virtual cookies! I feel all spoiled now. ^^

I don't know how the hell I've been watching Bones, but the other day I checked my TV shows folder when I was about to begin my Bones download and had a moment of, "Episode eight? Already? Did I get this wrong? There's been eight episodes of Bones this season?" I seem to be having trouble absorbing the show lately. Like, I enjoy it, but it doesn't stay with me. Haven't watched this week's yet, though—looking forward to it, despite what I just said.

( Assorted thoughts on the past couple episodes of Glee. )

Anyone have any Taylor Swift music to share besides her two albums, Christmas When You Were Mine and Untouchable? Live or studio, I don't care, I need more TSwift in my life.

Aaand I need an angle for my aiholidaybash story so badly. I love the pairing I have to write, but I don't think I can work with the prompts, and I know what kind of story I want to write, but I don't know what should happen in it or how to begin. It's driving me crazy.

(Also, for the record, LJ's failing to notify me of new comments, sigh.)

Very, very random TV thoughts:

( Dollhouse )

( Ugly Betty )

( Legend of the Seeker )

I was incredibly productive Friday afternoon/night (I finished all my Discrete Math work for the week! The week is suddenly looking a bit better knowing that I don't have DM on Thursday and can sleep in and don't have to do anything else for the class until next weekend.) and I actually got a good amount done Saturday as well. It turns out I have less to do this weekend than I originally thought, which is good. Today I need to finish revising my introduction and results for my research project so I can go over it and my presentation with my adviser tomorrow, prepare for the presentation, prepare for my cognitive psych group presentation (which is on Thursday, but we're meeting Tuesday to work on it, so I should have stuff prepared by then), and... I don't know. Start making flashcards for my German/Cognitive Psych finals? As I said, I actually don't have a lot left. Which is why I'll probably do nothing before dinner, and then after dinner I'll start feeling stressed out that I've done nothing all day and go to the library for a few hours and get everything done. Which should be fine. I mean, really, none of the stuff I'm planning on doing today is actually due tomorrow or Tuesday even, so it's not entirely necessary I get it done now. It's just so I don't go crazy this week or next.

I analyzed my results for my research project Friday and got zero significant results. Well, for one of the scales, the result was marginally significant, but in the exact opposite way I predicted, and... I don't know what to say about that. I can talk about no result, but I can't talk about the opposite result. It makes zero sense. I mean, the result is basically that in students without siblings, social self-esteem is higher for freshmen/sophomores than for juniors/seniors, which doesn't fit AT ALL with the literature that shows very clearly that social skills are gained throughout time in college. But it's not significant, so I don't really have to explain it too much. It's a little disappointing not to have any significant results and to not have my hypothesis supported, but I can think of several reasons why this might be, and most directed research students don't end up with significant results. In my group, of the 2 other people who have finished data analysis, one had zero significant results, and the other had significant results, but, like me, had a bunch of results she totally didn't expect and can't explain. Data analysis in general is kind of really cool, though. It's real world data! Rather than random made up data sets so you can learn how to use SPSS! I don't know. I enjoyed it. I would totally enjoy like being a statistics/data analysis consultant for... someone, or something. I don't know. I'm a dork.

There are only 13 days until my last final and then I'm flying home! I can't wait. I can so do with a break right now. And in 8 days, my research project is due, and that's causing me more stress than anything else right now, probably, so I'll be so thankful to have that out of the way. This past week went by super fast, so I'm hoping this week will as well. Especially since I have 2 presentations this week, and I hate presentations. I'm so bad at public speaking. blah.

Title: Hold On, Baby, You're Losing It
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Quinn/Rachel, mentions of Quinn/Finn and Quinn/Puck
Rating: adult
Warnings: tentacles (highlight to read)
Length: 2480 words
Summary: Maybe Mrs. Fabray was on a do-good high after giving up one of her kidneys for her cousin, or maybe it was just the morphine, but she'd brought Mr. Fabray—she kept calling him that, like it meant something—along with her to the pedes aisle to distract herself, and Quinn was being rocked to sleep by a nurse, unclaimed.

Notes: Written for a glee_kink prompt, sort of. Warning is hidden because I sort of made a (porny) fairytale out of it, and the story might work better if you don't know what 'it' is.

( Hold On, Baby, You're Losing It )

Bella Swan for twi20in20 + alternates
16 Twilight/New Moon/Actor stuff (added only because I didn't have enough for a whole post)




( click here )

( Being Erica )

I'm a member of Entertainment Weekly's Front Panel thing where you give your opinions about various stuff, just because I like giving my opinion about TV shows and movies and all that stuff. Anyways, yesterday in the mail I got a USB drive from them with the pilot from a new show or something. I don't know, I haven't watched it yet, but OMG THE USB DRIVE IS ADORABLE. I realize this is not what I should be focusing on, but seriously. It's in the shape of like a casette tape, and I don't even know, it's just really awesome. Also, it's really cool to be sent a new TV show to look at! It doesn't seem like a show I'd be interested in from the name and picture of it, but I'll maybe check it out this weekend if I have time. In any case, I'll post a picture of the USB because omg so cute. I hope I don't have to return it.

I think I'm quitting Wind Ensemble next semester. We had a meeting yesterday where our conductor told us that next semester (and also basically all next year) we're going to small ensembles instead of the big Wind Ensemble. ( Wind Ensemble talk )

I went to go through analyzing my results with my Directed Research adviser this morning, and I discovered that I accidentally left out one question for one of the scales I used. I feel so stupid. It's really not a big deal she said, since it's only one question and loads of people have done it before, but I feel stupid. Also, I have to go through all my data because some of the questions were about how many hours a person did an activity, and many people put a range, such as 2-3, but when I downloaded the results into Excel, Excel decided to automatically make 2-3 a date, so it displays as 02/03/2009 instead of the actual result. And when I change the format of the cells to general (instead of date), it gets all screwy. So I have to do it manually. ugh. I thought my data was all cleaned up for analysis, but it had so many issues, so now I have to clean it more and then meet my adviser again tomorrow to go through it. sigh. At least in 2 weeks this will all be over!

Title: Walk Like Rain (5/5)
Fandom: Glee
Characters/Pairing: Rachel, ensemble; Rachel/Quinn
Length: ~17,000 words (this part); 50,814 (total)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Rachel Berry goes to superhero school. Sky High fusion.

Notes: Oh my god, this took (and is) so freaking long. D: Sorry!

Masterpost | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 + 4b | Part 5 + 5b | Full Story

( Part 5. )

continued here

1. Somehow, every night for the past... four? days I've felt super depressed right before going to sleep. I even took an anxiolytic pill last night and it made me feel better, but there were a few minutes of paranoia anyway. It's so bizarre. I'm actually beginning to figure out what the fuck I want to do that might actually be plausible for me to do, so this makes pretty much zero sense.

2. I'm going to go to bed in about an hour, after I watch the Leverage pilot (which I never got round to, because I caught the show on cable last spring on the weekly rerun of 1x02 and went from there) to see if that distracts me from my crazy, so might as well ask — I just finished the last part of Walk Like Rain (thank. fucking. god), my Rachel/Quinn Sky High fusion, and while I'm holding true to the whole "I won't edit this thing in depth until February" thing, a proofreading/missing-word-spotting/sensemaking-confirming beta would come in really handy. I really want to post as soon as possible so I can forget about it and start working on my holiday ficathon assignments, so—anyone? Before I go to sleep? (Like, I'd send it over before that, not like I expect you to be done before that.)

—oh, by the way, it's 16,900 words long. Don't want to ambush anybody with the word count.

3. On the topic of asking, this is kind of terrible of me, but as you guys know my current Internet connection is shit, and I really hate that I can't keep downloading The West Wing. :( If someone could send me some DVDs with seasons 2-7, as many or as few as you want? You'd be a real lifesaver. (Or, like, assorted past episodes of The Daily Show or The Colbert Report wouldn't hurt either. I miss Jon and Stephen so much.) (Or Leverage season 1.) I have a pretty huge collection of movies (as in, .avi files) so I could probably try to send something back.

4. And just to add an extra bit of patheticness to this entry—like it even needs it—I, um, would really appreciate some kind of crash course in David Henrie/Selena Gomez. Links to pictures, videos, interviews, primers, really just about anything would be really, really helpful. (And don't underestimate my ignorance—if you think I've probably seen something already, I most likely have not.)

( since this is pretty pointless anyway, here are the songs from that character association meme I did the other day. )

( Gossip Girl )

Ugh I really want to watch last night's episode of Being Erica. But I have so much crap to do today that I told myself I wouldn't watch it until I finished everything. I don't know when exactly I became more excited for Being Erica than for any other show, but... yeah, I'm really loving it. This is what happens when you introduce a ship in a show I can get behind. And I just love how they've been changing up the episodes this season. Plus, Greek is off until February, I've been bitter towards HIMYM since Barney/Robin broke up, I still am really liking TBBT but Leonard/Penny prevents me from being as eager to watch it as last year, and Chuck won't be on until January. And those were all the shows I was obsessive over last semester, so... Being Erica is my new show to obsess over. For like, what, 2 episodes, and then the season's over? Same for Dexter, which is my other favorite show right now. Boo.

The head of the math department sent out an e-mail for people who are interested in being a preceptor (like a T.A.) for Multivariable Calc next semester with my favorite math professor (who was my professor for Multivariable last fall), so I e-mailed her to say I was interested. Unfortunately they give priority to people on financial aid, and I'm not on financial aid, so I probably won't get it, but I figured I'd e-mail her just in case. I'd totally do it for free/no credit/etc.; I just think it would be fun. And will probably make my life way busier than it needs to be next semester, but whatever. As I said, I probably won't get it.

I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now. I just keep remembering stuff I have to do and it just feels like way too much. Unfortunately a lot of stuff I need to do I can't start until Thursday or this weekend, so I feel kind of stuck. On the one hand, I'm so happy that this week has been flying by and there are only 10 days of classes left and 17 total days until I leave for winter break, but on the other hand, I know I have so much stuff left to do and so little time to do it all in. So I'm kind of a mess right now. I'm hoping to get loads done this weekend (I will pretty much live in the library on Saturday and Sunday, I think) so next week isn't quite so overwhelming.

I think last night I made some emotional progress re: my situation. Instead of being 100% paranoid, I was only 80% so, while the other 20% of my brain came up with plausible options that made me feel a little less pessimistic than usual. That's never happened before. Thinking about this somewhat actively, though, usually heightens my proneness to, like, existentialist depression, so I really could use some love. :D?

THE FANFICTION LOVE MEME

So, November's over! In November I read 0 books, watched 3 movies, and 110 episodes of TV. I'm currently at 65 movies, so my revised goal (since I really doubt I'll be getting to 100, especially since finals aren't over until the 19th) is 75 movies for this year. This will be pretty tough to do, actually, but I'll try. I'm currently at 1745 episodes of TV, and my goal is 2000. I think I should be able to do it. I'll probably start marathoning stuff once school gets out and once I'm home for winter break I'll go back to watching Buffy and Angel with my parents on the weekend. Plus, I'm sure I'll get DVDs of TV shows for Christmas. It doesn't really matter either way if I reach these goals or not, I just... enjoy having frivolous goals in my life that don't cause me stress if I don't reach them.

I bought my parents' Christmas presents this past weekend! I never figure out what to get them this early, so this is kind of awesome. I'm getting my dad season 2 of Dexter because everytime I'm home he's like "So why don't you have season 2 of Dexter?" because he really loved the show after I showed him season 1 over the summer. And it's unlikely that he'll buy it for myself or himself. For my mom, I bought her The Hunger Games (since I think she'd really like it) and a Neal Stephenson book she said she wanted but doesn't have.

I think I've completely given up on Discrete Math. Last night I was working on a draft of a project for the class and was so stressed out because I had absolutely no idea what to do or how to explain anything because I didn't understand it and I didn't care, and I pretty much just wrote some BS which he'll give back to me and will say "You basically need to explain everything. And maybe actually prove some of the claims you make" and then I'll still have no idea how to do it and I won't revise much of anything and I'll fail the project. BUT THEN I ONLY NEED LESS THAN A 50 ON EVERYTHING HERE ON OUT TO PASS THE COURSE. So this is my state of mind right now and why I gave up around 8 PM even though I have until 5 PM today to finish it. I just hate this class so much. I few weeks ago I was kind of going "...I don't know if I should have changed my grading option because I'm getting an A and I'm pretty much putting the same effort in as I would if I wasn't taking it pass/fail."

Although I did end up getting a 74 on the midterm we took last Tuesday that I thought went horribly. Which, I mean, not that a 74 is spectacular, but considering there were only 2 grades above an 80 (and only 4 between 60 to 79), and how terribly I thought I had done, I'm pretty happy with that. And he changed it so we can earn up to 2/3 of the points back on the test rather than 1/2 since everyone did so badly, so I can revise my grade up to a 91. I'm really, really happy I didn't bother studying for this test.

( Dexter )I adore this show so much, seriously. If you don't watch it, you're totally missing out.

random WIP meme. I don't even know where I found this one or why I'm doing it, except I should be in bed already so I'm not exactly at my brightest.

post an excerpt from every wip you can find. no explanations allowed, just the excerpt.

( AI8 RPF, Disney RPF (AU), FNL, Glee, Mercy, in no particular order. )

Did I mention that I have a bit of a cold? Not that it matters, but my throat feels raw and horrible. Everything else is manageable. And now I'm really going to sleep before paranoia kicks in.